There was a time when we got excited.
We got so excited about little things that
sleeping was a lost cause that night!
It could be a day trip during school,
a new book delivery!
A small trip across town
or even the fact that you got to see your best friend
outside of school, on a holiday.
But now, slowly, growing up
we realize, excitement requires energy.
The kind of energy that we can’t afford to use because
that assignment is pending!
the record is incomplete!
Family interactions, being polite
enduring conversations where you really want to point out that
a person can’t look like “a gay” but for the sake of maintaining peace,
you use up that extra energy to shut up
and sit quietly.
I’ve been feeling that way for a long time now, especially the past year, and I know how it feels to lose energy to do the things you want to do in life. To all those third years out there, don’t lose hope or faith. You can push through the end. It’ll be woth it.
My bae Parvathi over at her blog is writing some amazing poems. Go, show her your love!